Getting a little more JOLLY, a little more GREEN, and a little less GIANT.

28 November 2012

I'm Not Dead Yet

Blip.

Oh. There she is.

Yes. I still live. Only, I haven't much time.

To write, that is.

There's still a lot of time to live. I hope.

I received two messages today in my Facebook message box. The messages were different in nature, but each has stuck to me like a star on a Wimmick. They both caused me to come here, and visit my poor little forlorn weight loss blog. For the past couple of hours I've been reading my jolly journey from day one to the most recent post (October 12th?! Ouch!).

Look how far I've come. I started this bit of public humiliation, almost 300 pounds, barely able to get through a 30 minute Wii dance workout. 98 pounds lost later, I am a different person. Inside and out. I wish I had more pictures to show you of the beginning me. Sadly, I didn't take any. Not a one. I was so convinced I was going to fail, just like I had every other time, that I couldn't bear to have more ugly pictures of the reality of what I had let myself become. Biggest regret now.

Side note: If you're thinking of beginning a weight loss journey, you TAKE those fat girl pics! Hide 'em away if you must, but one day you're going to thank me.

I'm getting distracted. Why am I here?

Right. I'm checking in. 98 pounds lost as of Monday morning. The holidays came with a bit of a rebound from the 102 pounds I lost after my weight loss competition. That was to be expected. Still frustrating, but expected. There's always New Years, eh? Seriously, I plan to maintain for now and pick it up again with renewed vigor and vim in January. This is my second holiday season as a weight loser. I tried so hard last year to lose through the holidays and I only maintained. I'm not sure how to do it any other way. There's no shame in maintenance! (Say it with me now.)

Updates: I WON THE WEIGHT LOSS COMPETITION!

I HIT THE 100 POUND MARK!

I WON THE OGDEN MARATHON LOTTERY!

I AM REGISTERED FOR TWO FULL MARATHONS NEXT YEAR! (eep.)

I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR WONDERFUL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WHO HAVE AND STILL ARE CHEERING ME ON IN THIS WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY AND ARE ON THIS JOURNEY WITH ME!!!

That's the thick and thin of it for now.

Life is good.
People are amazing.
I am tired.
But inspired.
And will soon be retired...to my bed.

I wanted to make this post a little deeper and more meaningful, but I'm kind of failing. At least I checked in once in November.
I'm so grateful I started this blog last year. I wish I had been better about updating it all the time because reading back through it I can see how much I've changed over the last year and a half. Physically. Mentally. In every way.

See? I'm still trying to get all pensive and passionate. Enough's enough. 'Nite.

1 comment:

Debra said...

You are completely amazing!