Getting a little more JOLLY, a little more GREEN, and a little less GIANT.

16 May 2011

Lest you thought I forgot...

Hi.

*waves*

Remember me?

I didn't forget.

In fact this little blog and its proclamations of fatty defiance kept me going some days and trying most days. there was one day when I wanted to completely give up, but I knew I just couldn't because I would be just too ashamed to face my 15 followers with the news that I had fizzled out so quickly.

Fizzle I did not. But almost.

See...There's this little thing called emotional eating.

*raises hand* Guilty as charged.

When things begin to get rough, the very first thing I want to do is run into the safe embrace of my refrigerator doors.

I had been doing quite well at my healthy eating this week. It had been really difficult to get any exercise routines in (besides the one half hour of playing Just Dance Wii with the kids that I am TOTALLY counting as exercise) but I had been eating healthy. Very little sugar. Decreased carbs. Lots of fruits and veggies and water.

Then Friday came and I got some rough news.

What was the first thing I did?

Well, after crying a bit, I scarfed down a Milky Way Midnight, my very favorite candy bar.

I don't know why that seemed like a logical thing to do or something that would make me feel better, because immediately after I felt...broken. I had lost some sort of control I had gained over the past couple of days.

The gate had been opened.

The rest of they day I also consumed pizza, three sodas, and a few other unhealthy things.

I felt defeated. One little candy bar David took out this Not-so Jolly Green Giant.

Dumb.

When I weighted myself the next day and saw my weight loss had not been as dramatic as I had hoped (Hmm...pizza, soda, chocolate...Oh My!) I had the nagging thought to totally give up and just resign to being fat forever.

But then I thought of this blog.

Can't do it.

I've got an audience now that's keeping me true to my word.

Dangit.

So...Thanks for following, thanks for spurring me on, thanks for making me embarrassed enough to keep going out of pure shame.

P.S. I have had a couple of people say they want to join me. Honestly, it takes me everything I have just to watch out for my own weight loss progress. I don't have the energy or time to host any kind of "Biggest Loser" contest. Not yet. A little friendly competition would be...good. But I'm not sure how to construct it without getting too overwhelmed or going overboard. Any ideas?

P.P.S. I am down 3 pounds this week. Nothing to write home about, but nothing to scoff at either.

P.P.S.S. I am rededicated today. Exercise, water, and limited calories. On to a better, candy-bar-less week 2!

8 comments:

Jodi said...

Hope things get better soon!

Heather said...

Oh I have so much to say, but you probably don't want advice! You can do it Evelyn!! I have been where you are! At my highest I weighed 280; today I weigh 190. I know the journey you are on. You can do it! Just remember that it didn't take you overnight to gain the weight, so don't push yourself to try to lose it all overnight. 3 pounds in one week is great!! You should try for 2-4 pounds per week. Remember, "The Biggest Loser" contestants are working out for HOURS every day. Their weight loss numbers are not realistic for us Moms in the real world! If you allow yourself a small treat here or there, you will be less likely to "binge." And if you have an off day, do exactly what you did, forgive yourself and move on, but don't give up. You can do it!

Missy0327 said...

What is it that Bob says on Biggest Loser? You have a bad day, tomorrow is a new day. You are going to have those bad days, believe me I have been there!!! WAY to many times!! You just have to jump back in the next day.
As for hosting a contest, DON'T just blog about your loss and invite others to comment on your blogs to show thier progress. This is all about you right now and that's all that matters! I blog and it has apparently inspired others and I get random comments about their progress. Do it for yourself!!

MiMi said...

3 lbs is AWESOME!!! I'm probably UP that much cuz I ate approx. 4 lbs of dump cake for my birthday!

JPK said...

Bad news is never fun, and even worse when you are trying to be healthy. Hope things are better today!

K Lind said...

Hang in the girl! I'm proud of you!

Myya said...

Good for you, 3 lbs is a REALLY big deal! I have been doing a little better because of you, I keep thinking of how brave you were to lay it all out there when you started this blog. I don't know that I would lay all my cards out there, but maybe once I get rid of quite a bit of thise weight then I will tell where I started at. Definitely great motivation, so thank you!

I don't really eat better, I have just been thinking about not snacking when normally I would, I also have been trying hard to treadmill almost every night.

Hang in there mama you are doing great!!!

Laura said...

You are so brave to put your weight loss journey out for public consumption but hopefully it will help you. I know it has helped me to open up to my readers about my struggles with emotional eating. There is a whole community of us over-eaters out here and we just need to stop being shamed into eating in our closets! We need to nurture and support each other. In Anne of Green Gables, Anne's teacher said, "Tomorrow is a new day, with no mistakes in it". When today is too difficult, just remember when you wake up in the morning, it's a clean slate!

Laura http://mossygreen-northside.blogspot.com