Getting a little more JOLLY, a little more GREEN, and a little less GIANT.

22 August 2011

I may eat like a horse, but at least I can run like one too




I'm so frustrated with my weight gain this week. I'm even more disgusted with my lack of self control when it comes to food. This weight loss journey is such a...journey. Sometimes I start to feel too weary and just want to give up. I've been on weight loss journeys before and that's what I've always done when the going gets tough. I give up and I eat my way back to the weight I was before plus some. I'm simply not going to let that happen this time. I haven't come this far to give up over a few lousy weight loss weeks.

Plateaus happen. So what?!

I think one thing that's helping me be successful when I haven't been successful so many other times is that my goals include more than weight loss numbers. Yes, I want to lose weight and I want to see those numbers on the scale drop, but when the plateaus happen as they inevitably will what will keep me motivated and going?

I may not be reaching my weight loss goals right now, but I'm killing my fitness goals. I weigh 238 pounds, but I can run 6.2 miles without stopping one single time. Pardon my french and my lack of humility, but that is freaking awesome! How many 120 pound people can do that?

I'm not at a point in my weight loss where I am comfortable with how I look. I am not willing to just "be okay" with my current weight yet. I still have weight loss goals to meet and pants to buy. I'm not giving up on my healthy eating, but this is the kind of day where it's okay that I can't be perfect at losing weight, but I can be perfect at meeting a fitness goal.

For now, that is my motivation to keep trying.

6 comments:

Brittany said...

I literally LOL'd at the picture of that horse!

It is great to see the positive in a bad weight loss week. Keep up the good work!

shortmama said...

Im not 120lbs but I couldnt run .2 miles without stopping so you are doing amazing!

Missy0327 said...

NEVER GIVE UP!

Laura said...

You're doing FRIGGIN' FANTASTIC, Evelyn! Don't let a teeny little weight gain make you forget all of the pounds you have lost! Keep going... you WILL make it!

You are so inspiring to me. I weigh less than you and I am eating your dust in the running department!

Got another book to throw at'cha: 'The Four Day Win' by Martha Beck. It's really helping me with the mental/emotional aspects of my over-eating disorder.

Never forget that you have a support team behind you! You CAN do this! How do I know? Because you're already doing it...

Jodi said...

I'm so impressed with your running ability. Running is hard and it is an awesome accomplishment! I think it's great that you have lost so much, but even better that you feel healthier! Keep at it!:)

Bethany said...

That is so, so smart to have a fitness goal as well as a weight goal. I need to think more along those lines. I need to think about it, period. I am so scarily out of shape. You inspire me!!