5.4 pounds lost.
48.3 pounds total since 09 May 2011.
Funny how my weight loss goals start to get back in line just when my fitness goals are driving me crazy.
It was a hard week of running last week. Every day of running was excruciating to get through. One morning as I was bustling around the house cleaning, I bent forward and felt a rip in my upper back left leg. PAIN! It was sore the rest of the day and I wanted to cry with fear and frustration that my running goals were slipping through my hands. I ran that night anyway. The pain wasn't bad by then. But half a week later I can still feel it, nagging and pecking away at my self doubt.
My Saturday run was frustrating too. Usually my Saturday runs are glorious and triumph-laden. I had planned and fully expected to run 7 miles. But I couldn't run the whole thing. I ended up walking throughout.
After a run, I always feel accomplished when I did it "clean" meaning to me that I ran the entire distance I had planned to run. No walking. No shortcuts. No excuses. So after walking through parts of a 7 mile run I couldn't help but feel I had cheated and that my 7 miles was no accomplishment.
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I a perfectionist when it comes to running?
Is there anything wrong with walking parts of a running route?
Does it still "count"?
I wonder if I need to change my expectations of myself.
Or I wonder if this is just a bad week or I'm over training or I'm injured or...or...or...
I worry that I have pushed my body to its limit and this is it for me. I hate that! I hate feeling like I can't do it. And that's exactly how I feel this week. And just when I had decided I wanted to try for a full marathon next year...(Shh! I didn't say that out loud.)
Good week for weight loss. Bad week for fitness progress. We shall see what this week brings...
4 comments:
I think you're doing such a great job! 7 miles sounds like a marathon to me - especially after running around chasing kids all day! Whether you walked some or ran some - that is quite the accomplishment in my book!!:)
Sounds like just a little torn muscle. You need to stop running until it feels better and then start back up slowly. The only way to get rid of an injury like that is to rest for a few days.
Hang in there Evelyn! You are NOT at your limit!! Just look at how far you have come in such a short time!!!!! I really think you need to do some cross-training. Try swimming or biking. Or ZUMBA!! Your body (and metabolism) will respond better to variation in your exercise routine, and you will not have as much muscle fatigue since different activities use different muscles. Keep going, you are amazing!!!
It's hard when your body hits a wall... especially when your mind hasn't. Try cross training until your legs feel better and keep moving. Try some core exercises while you are in between running. {like doing the plank and stuff like that}
You can do this!! you have been doing it and you are awesome!!
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